Addiction = Disease or Weakness?

Last week, I saw a YouTube video that spewed some of the same hate that has sadly become routine. The guy ranted about how if you say you have the “disease” of addiction, you’re just “weak.” Let’s break this down in the least-scientific way possible. I’m so tired of this argument.  I believe strongly in […]

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What is “Black Tar Mormon” about?

Fifteen years ago I began the process of writing this book… I just didn’t realize it. I was a Mormon Missionary in Mexico and began finding therapy through writing. Back then, before emojis, writing to convey tone seemed like more of an art form. Obviously, anyone who considers themselves a wordsmith still enjoys that challenge […]

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I am NOT a Recovery Advocate.

Please don’t be a “fan” of someone for quitting drugs. Cheer them on? YES! However, positive labels are still labels. Do I try to advocate for the potential of addicts to recover? Of course. Honestly, though… I’m so sick of hearing about “recovery advocate” drama. I’m not a “recovery advocate” any more than I’m a […]

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Why Addiction is Sneaky

“If one felt that good, how would two feel?” When I was in jail, I heard a lot of guys talking about how desperate they were for a “head change.” This is what so many people need to understand about addiction. MANY people try drugs recreationally throughout their lives. There are plenty of people who […]

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“Stop Forrest” (A Lesson in Self Care)

I spent 33 years of my life trying to figure out what my calling was. I’ve been a construction foreman, a stock broker, a missionary, a drummer, a worm salesman, a writer, an addict, a journeyman ironworker, and so much more. The older I got the more I felt like Sylvia Plath watching the figs […]

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Why My “Interventions” Are So Unlike TV

When I started drinking heavily I called Dr. Drew on “Loveline.” I told him about my past as a Mormon Missionary and asked him a basic question: “How do I know if I’m drinking too much?” Dr. Drew asked me if I was blacking out. I was sort of like, “um, yeah… duh. That’s the […]

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News Anchors Laughing at Addiction.

I see these wisdom teeth or surgery videos where someone is high as a kite on opiates and news anchors laugh and say; “that’s so silly! Sure glad they didn’t have the internet when we were kids!! Back to you, Susan…” Then Susan puts on her “this is serious” face and talks about how overdose […]

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Live Life Urgently

Writing is time-travel. This morning I am reading through writing I did 6 1/2 years ago. So, today our “guest author” of sorts is, well… me. The me before drugs. ———————— What a breathtaking morning it was. From every visible standpoint, today is a day like any other. I have no idea what is different […]

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“You don’t have to do it alone.”

“Always take note of who supports you genuinely. Those are the people you should always keep around.” -Unknown Most days I see obstacles the way most guys do: – “I can fix that.” – “Get outta my way. I can lift that.” – “My hands are full, loop that over my shoulder. I’m not making […]

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